May 30, 2009
Over the Hill Part 2
Despite the aches and pains, this week was easier to deal with than previous weeks-after-chemo, when I was on the first two chemo drugs. I've had aches and pains plenty of times before in my life thanks to the flu or muscle soreness, so it wasn't terribly unbearble and it was nothing like the fatigue felt with my first four treatments. Fatigue is a total body, energy zapping, right down to the core of your bones lethargy that killed my mood and spirits at times. Body and bone aches aren't exactly pleasant, but I was still able to work nearly every day this past week and have some energy. But I certainly took it easy.
It's been a week since treatment #5 and I feel back to normal. My scarf collection continues to grow thanks to my wonderful friends and family, who all know exactly what colors and prints look great on me. Time to go pick one out and see some of those wonderful friends at a bridal shower!
May 22, 2009
Over the Hill
I felt like Caroline again during the second week after treatment, and I've noticed that I'm so happy those weeks no matter what's going on. It's my week to not think about cancer, not feel like I'm sick, and enjoy those days of feeling well until the next treatment.
Speaking of my fifth treatment today, I was nervous because while the drug is easier to tolerate, the chance of having an allergic reaction is high so I had to take a heavy dose of precautionary medications to minimize that risk. One of those drugs included an injection of Benadryl, which made me feel like I took ten shots of Grey Goose in less than a minute. First came the goofy smile and giggling, then I made a stupid joke and laughed hysterically at myself, and then I passed out cold for two and a half hours...all in less than two minutes. But I had no reaction and have felt well all day so far. Side effects are most likely to kick in over the next few days so hopefully the rumors about Taxol being easier are true!
Since I was asleep for awhile during treatment, I missed any humorous hijinks that went on around me, although I did get to witness Dad reading the Cliff's Notes version of Macbeth when we arrived to the Infusion Center. Apparently he found a whole bunch of old Cliff's Notes somewhere in his attic (those must have belonged to my brothers and not to me. I would never, wink wink :).
I hope everyone, including me, gets out at some point to enjoy this long Memorial Day weekend! Being able to say that I'm more than halfway done with chemotheraphy is reason enough for me to celebrate with a Bubba Burger and potato salad! Whatever your reasons are, I hope you enjoy.
May 16, 2009
A Springtime Drive
Springtime weather has finally made its way to
One of my favorite springtime firsts is driving with the windows down. In the past, I’ve never been able to drive with all four windows entirely down because my hair was always flapping around and getting in my face, even if it were in a ponytail. I’d leave the windows open enough to catch the breeze but not enough to make my hair look like a bird’s nest upon arrival to my destination.
My new (lack of) hair style, however, has allowed me to really feel what it’s like to drive with the windows all the way down. With only the tail of my scarf swirling in the breeze, it makes it easy to really feel the wind as I cruise around. On a particularly daring drive I chose to wear nothing on my head and felt the refreshing, exhilarating sensation of the wind while driving slightly above the speed limit on the Garden State Parkway. As I leaned my head out the window I thought that this must be what dogs feel like when they’re in the car and sticking their heads out the window. Since I was driving I couldn’t exactly stick my whole head out the window, but now I completely understand why dogs love doing it so much. What a rush!
I’ve made a promise to myself now. Every spring for the rest of my life, no matter how long or short my hair is, I will drive with the windows down, stick my head slightly out the window, and not care if my hair looks like a bird’s nest upon arrival to my destination. I’ll just be happy that it’s back and causing me all the trouble it used to!
May 9, 2009
Halftime Show
I feel very fortunate that the only side effects I experienced so far have been fatigue and hair loss. All of the information I received on A and C listed numerous other side effects that are possible but that I thankfully didn't have to experience. I asked Dr. K. on Thursday what to expect from Taxol, since I was nervous about starting a new drug since the first set wasn't that bad for me. He informed me that people tend to handle Taxol even better than A and C so hopefully that goes the same for me and is not the opposite! I asked him if my hair would start growing back while on Taxol and he laughed and said no. I know I know...be patient.
After a thorough breast exam, Dr. K. also informed me that the size of the tumor is decreasing! I have been able to tell that myself since after my second chemo treatment, but it made me feel better to hear confirmation from my oncologist.
With warm weather on the way, a shrinking tumor in my breast, and a trip to Yankee stadium planned for next Saturday, I have plenty to smile about!
May 3, 2009
Sammy Dallas
My last post described my discovery of The Lump, so I thought I would continue this trip to the past and discuss the weeks following my diagnosis and leading up to my first chemo treatment. I refer to this period of time as Sammy Dallas. This name comes from my (late) dog’s name and my mother’s maiden name, the common formula for a person’s x-rated movie star name. With all these strange eyes and hands on my breasts, an x-rated star is exactly what I've felt like!
Breast viewings have since decreased now that I’m undergoing chemo, but only temporarily. With a breast surgeon appointment and MRI coming up, it won’t be long before Sammy Dallas gets to make another appearance on the examining table!